Friday, July 24, 2009

Musically yes.

I'm currently in love with this song,
it's a Vocaloid song. It's called Saihate. I just love the piano version.
I think I'm gonna learn how to play it, x)
Saihate- Piano Version
I love that song. It's just so peaceful, beautiful, heartwarming.
well, that song lifted up my spirits today, so
if someone reads this, I hope that song lifts up your spirits too.

*Sometimes I wish I was a Vocaloid so I could sing that pretty song, or I could
just sing in general*

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-Lyrics-
mukou wa don na tokoro nanda roune
(I Wander what's it like over there?)
buji ni tsuita ra tayori demo hoshii yo
(If you get there alright I'd like a letter or something)
tobira wo hiraite kanata e to mukau anata e
(Opened the door and To you who are going away beyond)
kono utagoe to inori ga todokeba iina
(This singing voice and prey could Reach you, I hope)

kumo hitotsu nai youna nukeru hodo seiten no kyou wa
[(Sky) with out one cloud Bottomless clear sky (day like) today]
kanashii kurai ni, owakare biyori de
(Is almost sad, It's just the day for parting)
arifureta jinsee wo akaku iro zukeru youna
{(Touched through one) ordinary life As if coloring them scarlet}
taoyaka na koi desita taoyaka na koi desita
{It was (such) a Yielding love Was (such) a Yielding love}

sayonara
(Farewell)

mata itsuno hini ka deaeru to shinji rareta ra
(Maybe one day again If I could believe we'll meet again)
korekara no hibi mo kawarazu yari sugoseru ne
(Days from now on too Without change We can get by)

tobira ga shimare ba kono mama hanare banare da
(When the door shuts We are right on to be apart)
anata no kemuri wa kumo to nari ame ni naru yo
{(Then) Smoke of you Will be a cloud then rain}
arifureta jinsei wo akaku irozukeru youna
{(Touched through one) ordinary life As if coloring them scarlet}
taoyaka na koi desita taoyaka na koi desita
{It was (such) a Yielding love Was (such) a Yielding love}

sayonara
(Farewell)



Au Revoir,
Sora

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Weird but scary nightmare@*#$&!

I had a nightmare yesterday; it was super scary, especially since I was living it, well not living
it actually, but seeing it with my own eyes. It's probably the first nightmare in a long time.
Here is what happened-
actually you know what? It's too long to explain, and it involves things that are
too long to explain also. But to put it short, it involved man-eating vampires,
churches, crosses, and nighttime.
Weird right?
My quote or saying of the day is-
"I got lost on the road of life."

Hehe, and if you're a manga otaku freako like me, then you know
that that quote is from the manga Naruto =)

Oh oh, and today I was super happy at volleyball, because we finally won games! woot!
oh, and you know what? Someday I plan to go to Japan and cross dress as a boy,
because you see it done in so many Asian dramas. x) it looks fun...


I'mma outs,
Sora

Monday, July 13, 2009

Lazy day?

Monday, 12:03PM the thirteenth
Today I decided not to go to volleyball. It's not that I hold a grudge, or
have lost interest in it. It's just- complicated; and I don't want to go back until
I've settled down. Which would probably be by tomorrow.
I know I gotta stop running away. So I'll try to make an effort.
I've done my summer homework. I've been thinking-
it's so fast. Everything is. I'm going to a new school, gonna
have to make new friends, exception of some old ones,
and I haven't even seen my best friend in a long time.
I'm growing up too fast, that life is passing me by. Hours, minutes,
they don't stop, and I can't stop time. I just want a break from life you know?
But when does the big guy ever give breaks?
So, I'll deal with everything myself, and I'll just stop running away.
Hm, maybe another problem is that I'm thinking TOO much. Haha,
isn't that a thought?
Well, I've got things to do.



Sayonara,
Sora

Thursday, July 9, 2009

•-Bad Day-•

Today was one of the worst days of summer.
I absolutely hope this is the LAST day of this kind.
No one, at all, listened to what I had to say, so I gave up.
I was so-- I don't know what to name the feeling, but I wrote it down.
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Thursday 7/9/09-- 12:53 P.M. (Volleyball at the School)

I've lost it. Something inside me cracked, and I just stopped caring. Stopped caring about the people watching. The volleyball game. My eyes kept straying from the ball; the clock. I wanted the hands to reach three o' clock already. It's too long. Giving up volleyball, I lost my passion and my drive. It's gone. I'm going to stop coming to volleyball. If I get cold and uncaring, people will come to avoid me; it's better that way than false friendships. I feel empty. A big part of me is gone. These feelings are like that one time, but this time, it's worse. I don't feel like doing anything. I just want to close my eyes, shut out the sounds, and sleep. Sleep forever. If only. But then I can't. I have to wake up. Fake smiles, they're much harder, or easier, then you'd think. My laugh sounds so fake, that I want to laugh at myself. People think that I have it easy, being so smart, being the daughter of someone so well-known where I live, but they're wrong. It's not easy. The pressure of being the "good" child, being fit, muscular or skinny, fitting in with my friends. I'm tired of my fake smiles, so I'm just going to stop smiling. The people, days, they just pass by. I guess that would mean I'm feeling emo? Haha, I just want to laugh at that. Emo=emotional, and I'm emo? No way. I don't feel a single emotion inside me.
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I'm feeling better now though, so don't fret. :) I'm even thinking of becoming a writer, with my
skills, it could happen maybe. Now that I read back on it, I'm surprised how cool that last
line was. :0 but then again. so yeah. I'm better now..-ish. so no emo- well wrong term-
no more "empty" me.


So adios.
Sora